Why I Blog

Over the past few weeks there has been some people who think they can bully fellow bloggers and well just create drama where there shouldn’t be any. I think it’s taken a toll on everyone involved, and everyone who just knows about it. I’ve told my friend the whole time it just reminds me of middle school and a mean girls club that found a target just for the hell of it. They just need to chill and refocus on what THEY’RE doing, not what other people are doing. I’ve realized though this will never happen with those girls, but I’m just hoping it does. Blogging isn’t suppose to have rules, it’s suppose to be fun. I’m an old school blogger though, I remember when there wasn’t groups and there was no drama. Everyone was on the same level and just enjoyed hearing what everyone was doing in their lives – even stood by them through some seriously hard times.

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Make Your Entrance Long

Two days in a row of taking a two-year-old (almost three) shopping…that is the perfect birth control!

Wednesday I was going to go shopping with my aunt in hopes of getting a few items bought up for the bake sale at the end of the month – and she had to pay a bill.

Well that morning I got up and I made soup and was eating it at the kitchen table. While I was eating it my niece sat down at the table and was eating a hot dog and cheese.

For some reason she loves hot dogs, but she’ll only eat them cold.

When I was finished with my soup I said that I needed to go get dressed and ready to leave. I shouldn’t have said anything. As soon as I said that my niece said I can’t leave, and she looked at my mom and told her she was going too. My mom ended up calling my aunt and in the end my niece went with us.

So instead of dragging my niece into the place where my aunt had to pay the bill we just sat in the van. Before we went there we picked up the mail so I was able to entertain her for a little while with the ads. That only lasted so long though, we ended up outside walking around the parking lot and we took a little walk down the street.

As soon as my aunt was done we heard those words I was hoping we wouldn’t hear: I want something to eat, I want something to drink.

So we ended up having to go to a place and pick food up. The good thing was it was a nice day so we went to the park and ate at the park.

She’s also in the middle of potty training, so the good thing was where we parked was right next to the bathrooms so we went to the bathroom before we left.

We had to go to a craft store – it’s one with a $1 section. So I didn’t really get to look at things, I was in the $1 section. She had piggy bank money and her goal is to always spend all of her money. So she ended up with two new rubber duckies, a coloring book, new crayons and a crown.

We did go to the restaurant supply store, but they don’t carry paper products. Which was a huge surprise. So we have no cake/cupcake boxes still. >_<

The last stop was to pick up some baking items. And it also led to having to buy Spongbob Square Pants Mac-n-Cheese. The good thing is, it was on sale for 88 cents.

Before we got out of the store she also had to buy a ball.

I went down the drink section looking for Kool-Aid flavors to use for that popcorn. I found that they had the Watermelon Kool-Aid! So I bought two to make Kool-Aid with and one for popcorn. Another new flavor is green apple! I’m more excited over the watermelon flavor though.

Yesterday was another shopping trip with my niece.

This time I was just going to Kohl’s to spend a gift card. I LOVE that they mail out the promotional gift cards. My mom always gets one and gives it to me.

My niece somehow got her dad to give her $10 the night before, so she alone had $15 to spend.

The gift cards they mail out though are $10, so I always go in and have a goal of only spending $10 or a little over.

I did find a pair of boots that would have been $2, but when I tried them on my niece didn’t like them and told me I couldn’t get them. Haha. So I didn’t get them, plus they were a size 4 and the brand they were I needed a 3. I hate that shoe brands are not all the same size. >_< I mean the show brand that Payless owns (the shoes you find in their store for around $10) I wear a size 2!

In the end I ended up buying a pair of these awesome leopard print jeans. They’re a size 12 though so they’re not “skinny”, they’re baggy and I’m hoping after a wash or two they’ll look better. The original price was $40! My thought was…I’m never buying my niece $40 jeans! I only spent $4 on them.

I’m an underwear hoarder. I just can never have enough underwear, and if it’s cute – such as cartoon animals – I can’t pass it up. I looked through the underwear in the girls section because they had a lot marked down but I didn’t see any I really liked. So I ended up getting a couple pair in the juniors section. One pair was $1.80 (original price $9) and the other pair was 90 cents (original price $9).

The last thing I bought was a tube top. But this one comes with straps that you can attach to it. I’ve been looking for one, and since this one was on sale and I wouldn’t end up spending any money on it that’s why I finally picked it up. It was $2.80 (original price $14).

So in the end I spent $10.13 – including tax!

At first my niece wanted to buy underwear. I’m not even kidding. Most kids want nothing to do with buying clothes, but she likes clothes. I’m not sure if that’s going to be a good thing or a bad thing when she gets older.

In the end though she ended up finding a Dora The Explorer doll. It’s the one where she’s a gymnast. The original price was $32.99. Which I was shocked by. But it was on sale so it was only $16.49.

To make it a lot easier I just put everything into one checkout. So the total was $17.07. If we would have bought everything at full price it would have been over $100.

After we were done there my mom had the idea of going to the park to feed the ducks. Well when we got to the park we realized none of the ducks were hungry. So my niece ended up playing.

I always go on the playground equipment with my niece. I see nothing wrong with it as long as there are not a lot of kids playing on it. Well this lady there seen a huge problem with it and started yelling! No joke! We had been at two other areas of the park before this and none of the other parents said a word to me, they quiet enjoyed seeing me playing on the stuff too. But this lady was like parent from hell or something. When she started yelling I picked my niece up and we went to the car.

I just can’t believe a parent would like that in public and in front of their child. I mean, how could you act like that? Screaming because someone is playing with a child – and she didn’t know if I was playing with my daughter or my niece, she had no clue what our relationship is.

Just as Wednesday as soon as we got in the car she started saying she was hungry. So we went to get ice cream.

Outfit picture: Crop vest, plaid pants, The Adicts t-shirt

I’m just tired after those two days of taking her shopping.

Later today I have to go help set up for the arts/crafts event that’s this Saturday. We can’t get into the building though to set up until after 6pm. So I have a long wait. I really want to take a nap, but I can’t. If I take a nap that means I’ll be up all night and Saturday is an early morning. Ugh.

Saturday the event is 9am to 4pm. I’m just hoping it goes well and I sell a few things.

Last night the best thing happened. My brother broke up with that horrid girl, which means she moved out. Now I can put things back in the bathroom!

Thanks to a family friend though we did find out for sure why she doesn’t have her daughter and who does. Turns out her dad has her daughter. Why? She couldn’t keep her daughter clean so someone called CPS on her.

I’m just hoping this makes him realize that he needs to worry about his daughter and not finding someone to lay down with. Though I have a feeling that isn’t going to happen any time soon, which is so sad. My mom did tell him that he needs to get to know someone before jumping into anything with them and letting them around his daughter.

Now I’ve been single for about three months. I haven’t really been looking for anything. Just making a few friends really.

Well I’ve made a new friend recently and we’ve been talking a bit every day. And we talk until we pretty much fall asleep at night. We’ve had some great talks and have found out through all the talking we’ve been doing we really understand each other – and well it’s awesome to not have to explain yourself to someone.

This morning I made a joke that I think I’m dying because of the huge lack of sleep from last night. His response to that was telling me that I can’t die. Well, I had to ask why…

because… *shuffles feet around nervously*… i like you, that’s why.


And I know I had such a stupid smile on my face. I do like him, but I haven’t had a chance to really be around him so I’m not sure how it’s going to be with extended hours around him. I’m just trying to take my time and everything – I just hope that doesn’t scare him away.

We have been talking about doing a little movie night or something like that. Which I think will be a good thing.

Blog Title:Mr. Hard by The Adicts

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Give ‘Em A Good One Right In The Eye

I don’t know if any of you have ever had it, but there’s this stuff called Jell-O popcorn. It’s popcorn covered in a hard coating made with Jell-O. Well I don’t like Jell-O so I used flavored drink mix – it wasn’t Kool-Aid but I’m just going to call it Kool-Aid popcorn! [Recipe]

Okay, I know it sounds kind of weird but it’s actually good. Plus you can use whatever flavor is your favorite flavored drink mix. I wouldn’t recommend attempting this with kids helping you – when the mixture is hot you can get serious burns – but I do recommend you making it for kids!

I took the recipe and cut it down to 1/4 of the recipe – I was just testing the recipe out to see how well it turned out. Since I cut it down into 1/4 of the recipe I ended up using 1/4 teaspoon of the powdered drink mix. It was a pure guess but it turned out to be on spot – I think so anyways. The only downside is I have the rest of a packet of drink mix to figure out what to do with it. I’m sure I’ll find something though.

While I’m talking about food I’ll take the time to express how stressed I am over this bake sale that’s coming up. It’s going to be held the 1st though the 4th (May). So by looking at the calendar there’s not really a lot of time left. Ugh. Plus the number of cupcakes has me completely stressed.

How many cupcakes has to be baked for this bake sale? Only over 200. =_=

I know it seems crazy to make that many but it’s easy to freeze cupcakes and we’re making 10 different flavors.

I’m also working on my first cupcake recipe! I don’t want to say too much about this cupcake, but it’s taking me a while to get it together because instead of making the cake from scratch I’m writing the recipe out so you’re using a cake mix – I know a lot of people don’t have the time to make it from scratch so that’s why I’m doing it that way. If you know me though, you know I hate using cake mixes for anything. I think this cupcake is a very summery cupcake too. ^_^

Last week I took the time to dig out my vest – for some reason it was in with my costumes, no clue why it was in there. This thing has been a labor of love and sleepless nights. I’ve finally started adding studs to it. I did order some more studs from ebay – 90 cents total for 100! I can’t wait to get them in the mail.

I know 99% of people with vests buy patches to sew on. I have a love for all things paint – you guys know how much I love painting – so I paint my own patches. I haven’t added any new patches to it for a while, but I am working on a new one. The new one is going to be a pig wearing a cop hat. I just need to pick up the blue and pink paint that I need to paint it.

I have been throwing around the idea of making a patch that looks like name tag and having it say one of my nicknames on it – though I have no clue which nickname to use. I just think it would a great addition to the vest. And I still have so much room for patches too.

I also took the time to fix my belt. This is the belt I love for so many reasons, but due to me wearing it all the time right where it would feed through the buckle it was in two pieces. I found some heavy duty thread and sewed it together. I still have my blue and black belt, but I’m going to give that one a rest for a while so I can wear this one again. It sounds so odd, but I’ve missed this belt so much and I know the “fix” isn’t going to last very long but I’m going to wear it until I can’t “fix” it any more.

And here’s an outfit pictures from the 3rd. ^_^

A couple weeks ago I took all my band shirts that I’ve bought and fixed them so I can wear them all now. Adult small is too big on me so I took all the shirts and cut them down to a youth large. It just feels great to finally be able to wear all these shirts that I spent money on and were never able to wear. I did leave a couple big so I can sleep in them and such.

So a couple posts ago I explained this mess of a girlfriend my brother has. I have yet to figure out the truth behind why she doesn’t have her daughter – I don’t believe a word that comes out of her mouth. As far as things between her & I, they came to a head Sunday night.

I was talking with my mom. We were talking about his dog. I said: “He should have never gotten a dog when he couldn’t take care of his daughter.” (You all know how he doesn’t spend the time & such he should with her) Out of nowhere this girl shouts out “He does take care of his daughter!”. At that point I walked over to where I could see her and I said:

“I wasn’t talking to you. You’ll know when I’m talking to you, bitch.”

That’s all I said and I walked away. I can’t only take so much of someone thinking they know everything and thinking they’re part of everything. She isn’t and she’ll never be.

Well after that I was sure the shit storm was going to start. Turns out my mom loved the fact that I stood up to her. Before I went to bed that night my mom’s husband stopped me and told me he was proud of me for standing up to her. Needless to say I think it all proves no one likes her and everything is fed up with her crap.

I see clearly now that she’s a troublemaker, but she always makes it out so she’s the victim. The only victim I’m seeing is her daughter, her daughter has no mother.

But ever since the blow up between her and I, she’s been going to a friends house during the day so I don’t run into her. I guess she’s scared of me now, she did look like she was going to cry when I told her how it was. I think she’s never had someone stand up to her.

On a lighter note, I think I’m going to talk my mom into going with me to the mall Thursday. We’ll be taking my niece too, but it’s been a while since we’ve been to the mall with her. Plus I have a gift card for one of the stores to use. It would be nice to get some new shoes, but I don’t see that happening. At the least I’ll get a new kitchen item. ^_^

Today for the most part I spent time working on a few things before this art/craft event on Saturday. I have nothing totally finished though…mostly because I ended up making the cats a toy. haha. I’m figuring though I will be able to have at least a couple new things finished by Saturday.

I also took time to clean. Mostly putting clothes away. I have a bad habit of not putting them away after they’re washed. I thought having a closet would help break that habit, but so far it hasn’t. I also went in the bathroom and began the headache of cleaning out all the old products that are no good or that no one is using. So while I was cleaning I had music playing, so I thought it would be fun to share the playlist I was listening to.

My AK by Abolitionist
Hard As Fuck by Against All Authority
An Hour Made For Arson by Allout Helter
All Cops Are…A-Z by Anti-Flag
This Is The New Sound by Anti-Flag
The Ranks Of The Masses Rising by Anti-Flag
Shit Happens by Bishops
Talk Not Bomb by Call For Arms
White Roses CityCop.
Vs. World by Curious Volume
Spoiled Girls by Earworm Attack!
Ashtray Petting Zoo by Joyce Manor
The One Party System by Justin Sane
Wish by Much The Same
Horny In A Hearse by Nekromantix
Can’t Party by NU
Off The Wagon by Paddy And The Rats
Hot Rod by Peaches
Stay Dreaming by Playtime Revenue
Under The Gun by Riot Agents
Cruising For Chicks by Teenage Bottlerocket
In The Pit by Teenage Bottlerocket
Mutilate Me by Teenage Bottlerocket
Horrorshow by The Adicts
Mr. Hard by The Adicts
Smart Alex by The Adicts
Hot Pearl Snatch by The Cramps
Like A Bad Girl Should by The Cramps
Bend Over, I’ll Drive by The Cramps
You’ll Come Crawlin’ by The Creepshow
Rock’n’Roll Sweetheart by The Creepshow
Shit Out Of Luck by The Kings Of Nuthin’
Shitsville U.S.A. by The Kings Of Nuthin’
You’re Fucked by The Kings Of Nuthin’
The Slowest Drink At The Saddest Bar On The Snowiest Day In The Greatest City by The Lawrence Arms
Fuck The Radio by The Potato Pirates
A Knuckle To The Nose by The Potato Pirates
Loosen Up by The Potato Pirates
Feel The Same by The Rebel Spell
You Remind Me The Kids I Used To Hate At School by Uncommonmenfrommars
Perfect Place by Virus Nine
Sky Started Crying by White Wives
Hungry Ghosts by White Wives
Paper Chaser by White Wives

In the morning though I have to go with my aunt. She has a bill thing to deal with first, after that we have to go to a local restaurant supply store to look at prices of cupcake boxes and things for the bake sale. She also has to go to JoAnn Fabric. I don’t have the money to spend there but I can at least go in there and look around at a couple things – mostly the paint to make more patches with.

Blog Title: King For A Day by The Kings Of Nuthin’

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I’ll Run Backwards

So the week wasn’t that great and weekend wasn’t that much better.

Instead of my niece being here until this afternoon, she’s here until Tuesday night now. Don’t get me wrong I like when she’s here because I know she’s okay – and I know someone is feeding her real food. It’s just a lot of work. Not to mention my brother has a new girlfriend…

This girl came here with no clothes – besides what she was wearing. And it’s been nearly a month and she’s still wearing the same clothes. Ew. Not to mention the same underwear…double ew! How can someone do that? Just the thought of it makes me want to get a shower.

Today I went into the bathroom to notice she has been using my face wash, as well as my fingernail polish remover pads. So tonight I’m going to be taking all of my items out of the bathroom.

I have no problem with letting other people use things, but you ask first!

She just came in and thinks she owns everything and is the boss of my niece. Like I told my mom, this girl is nothing to my niece and will never be.

Tomorrow I’m suppose to babysit since my mom has to go see her doctor. So I called my aunt, so tomorrow my niece and I are going to go over to her house for the day – well until my mom gets home from the doctor. Tonight while everyone else is asleep I’m going to gather some snacks up and pack a little bag and get her coat and shoes together so this girlfriend won’t have time to ask where we’re going. It’s none of her business.

I’m seriously just fed up with the way she acts. She lays in bed all day and watches TV – or plays on her phone. I’ve never seen her lift a finger to clean. And I’ve only seen her really cook once…and I ended up washing the dishes!

I mean I know I don’t have a regular job, but I sure as hell don’t lay around all day long. If I’m not working on new items I’m doing housework and such.

Plus this girl has a daughter, but doesn’t have custody of her and never sees her…I’m going to get to the bottom of that because I want to know why if she’s going to be around my niece. And if it’s a court order, it takes a lot for a court to take a child away from their mother. When I heard this information a little red flag stood up in my mind. I’m not saying she did anything bad or abused her daughter – I’m just saying I have a right to know if she’s going to be around my niece.

In other news…

I saved the jar from my Better Than Bouillon vegetable base – if you have never tried it, it’s AMAZING – in hops of getting the stickers off the jar…which seems like it’s going to take everything to get the stickers off it. I want to use the jar to put some of my oatmeal bath in for one of the upcoming craft events. I think once the jar lid is covered with fabric it will look cute.

Does anyone have tips for getting sticker labels off a glass jar?

Right now I’m only going to take two jars of the oatmeal bath to see if I can sell them. The downside is since we don’t have a working printer I have to write out the tags and directions for them. Fingers crossed people can read my writing! haha.

I would like to sell the bath online but the reason I don’t offer it in my shop is the cost of shipping. Shipping costs just suck sometimes.

Talking about mail…A friend from California sent me a cute little letter last week and I did finally write him back and I even put together a tiny package to send. It should cost right around $1 to mail it, which is right in my price range! haha. It was just great to get a little letter in the mail. Sometimes handwritten always beats something on a screen.

If anyone wants to do like a random note exchange or something along those lines just let me know! ^_^ I’m always up for it! And since craft events are coming up, it will give me something to do while I’m sitting there for a while. Which is another reason why I’m glad my mom got me a tablet for Christmas – I may not have wifi at most of the events, but I’ll at least be able to play games and read.

The first event is April 12. Which is coming up so quickly – I can’t believe it! The good thing is I have all the 1950‘s inspired headscarves finished. But the bibs I was hoping to make I screwed up on so I won’t be finishing them at all. The last thing I was going to make are some sleeping masks, but I can’t work on those until I get some elastic.

If the oatmeal bath sells at this first event I am going to be making more and offering it at all the events I attend.

I’m hoping to make enough money at this first event to order my niece her birthday gift. For Easter I’m making her “Backpack” – the backpack from Dora The Explorer. I’m still on the fence as to what to get her for her birthday. I was really wanting to get her a doctor pretend play kit, but she’s really into the idea of being a ballerina lately.

While talking with my aunt today I did figure out everything to do with the birthday cake. The cake is going to be a regular vanilla cake and the icing is going to be pink lemonade! I still need to get the stencil drawn for it. The hope is to do a large pig and do a baby pig – the baby pig will be just all for her instead of a cupcake.

I know it’s been a while since I’ve talked about dating…well I’m not dating. Weekend of the convention I had a hard time because it just seemed everything reminded me of Jason. That’s kind of why I spent most of my time alone while we were all at the cabin. I just needed time alone.

As of now there’s no one I’m looking to date or anything like that. I’m just going to be alone for a while. I think that’s just what I really need to do. I have been asked on a couple dates and I’ve turned them down.

A bit of a funny story…and scary…

Yesterday at around 8pm I realized I had not seen Wednesday since that morning. Well around 9pm I got a flashlight and went outside in the rain/snow to try to find her. As I was walking in front of the house calling her name, I looked over and see a little black foot stretching out from the siding of the house. There she was! She was stuck under the house all day, and when I got her out she was a mess. She had spiderwebs all over her head, stuff in her tail and she smelled like death. When I got her in the house all she wanted was food. In the end she was totally fine, but it was funny to see her leg reaching out.

Once she ate she was glued to me for the rest of the night, and today she didn’t leave the house. I think she realized outside is bad.

Blog Title: Roll Me Through The Gates Of Hell by Mischief Brew

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And His Own Sweat Smells The Best

First: Peanut Butter & Jelly Cookies!

I finally typed the recipe up and posted it. I’m also in the middle of rebuilding my recipes page so it’s kind of…wait it is a huge mess. I’m slowly making progress though, that’s the good thing.

There are a couple recipes in odd sections because I’m not sure where they should go. haha.

During this process I’ve also learned that there have been so many recipes I never had time to post! So with each section I add I’ve been typing up at least one recipe. With the section I’m working on now I have six sections left until I’m totally finished with it. And well I just can’t wait to be finished. It has taken so much time, but it’s going to be great in the end!

I want to thank everyone for having positive things to say about me sharing the ability to identify as your true self.

I joined two online dating websites, right now just to make some friends – see how things go. Well on their sites I’ve been getting a lot of hate messages asking if I’m transgender and telling me to get off the sites because they are not for “your kind of people”. A lot of the messages come from people who considering themselves “country boys”. Which also means they’re close minded hill folk.

I have nothing against the transgender community, they are the bravest people in the world.

The reason behind me being called transgender and getting hate mail is the pure fact that people are still stuck in thinking someone who is born a “female” needs to have long silky hair and show her breasts to the world.

Hair doesn’t make your gender.

And by no means am I depressed or sad over this, I find it kind of funny that people still base 90% of what they think on pictures and a black and white society. In a way I’m glad I’m getting these messages because I know a lot of people are hurt by them, I’m taking them for those people who can’t emotionally handle such hate.

Those close minded people are not going to make me grow my hair out, change how I dress, become Betty homemaker, or stick to gender roles. No thank you. I am the person I’m suppose to be,  it’s written in my D-N-A.

Now that I’ve got that out of my system I feel so much better.

The weather has been kind of nice over the past few days. The downside is, cold weather is coming back. Ugh! Why can’t winter take a vacation? Another bad thing about this weather is due to all the changing, I’m getting a damn cold. So far though I’ve been able to hold it off, but all I want to do is sleep, but I think a lot of that has to do with my sleeping problem.

My sleeping issues hasn’t change though, still having major issues falling asleep. When I finally fell asleep last night I was woke up by two things. One thing being my knee just killing me because of the weather changing again. I did take a pain killer and fell back asleep.

The second thing was a nightmare. There was a big mean dog running around outside and I heard Odie bark and made a super sad noise. I went outside to find Odie because he got out of the fence and I couldn’t find him! This dog ran up to me and grabbed the back of my coat, trying to bite me. I did find Odie and he was covered in blood. =_= I have no clue what was behind that dream, but I don’t want to have another – ever!

Since I was feeling down about the distance thing I kind of threw myself into a little Supernatural marathon. I know, it sounds totally nerdy – but it helped.

I finally finished season 4 – which has always been my favorite season. I think for the main reason of that being when they really used the angels and demons storyline. I loved that storyline. But season 4 also made me not like Sam even more – well season 9 has made me not like him again.

I started season 5, which has some great episodes. But I also know how it ends and that Lisa is part of that. Yes I’m one of the fangirls who always wished Lisa and Ben would die.

Next Saturday night I’ll be watching Lifetime. I’m not a huge fan of lifetime movies, but they’re doing one based on the happy face killer [LINK]. I’m kind of excited to see how this little movie turns out, I don’t have a lot of faith in Lifetime movies in general.

Tonight the new season of Food Court Wars [LINK] starts, yes I know I watch too much Food Network. It’s really interesting to see the ideas people have for food court stalls. Last season one of the stalls was all about having your chips on your sandwich.

Well I thought I was going to work on those pages some more but I’m going to try to take a nap. I feel like crap.


Blog Title: A Well Respected Man by The Kinks

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